It’s one thing to recognize the fact that you’re addicted to something. It’s another thing to actually put in the effort to break that cycle. It’s yet another thing to successfully break the cycle, only to fall back into it after a while. I went through all these phases up till my weed relapse pretty quickly, so I thought I’d share my experience with you guys. Maybe you don’t have to make the same mistakes that I did.
As you already know from my previous post, my problem was with marijuana addiction. I quit marijuana for a while, but I struggled a lot. It made me recognize just how dependent I’d become on the substance, but it didn’t make it easier to deal with withdrawal, and I relapsed. Let’s go back in time a little bit further.
When I did marijuana quit , I didn’t do it suddenly. I found that the best way to do so was to taper off it slowly over a period of time, and that worked out well for me. It felt incredible – initially. It felt like some sort of fog that had been clouding me mentally had been lifted, I was in better spirits, I was a lot more active physically and relapsing on weed didn’t even seem like an option. I felt like I was in complete control – again, for a while.
Eventually, the urges came. Initially, I only felt them once in a while. I still hung out with some of my friends while they smoked, so I’d occasionally feel the natural pull to hit one. One thing led to another, I had a terrible day, I lost control, and the relapse on weed happened. I asked for a puff from a friend (in her defense, she was hesitant, but I wouldn’t take a no), and that single puff led to a full-on smoking session under the night sky. The marijuana relapse on that night was a trigger – I carried on for weeks after that.
I’ll tell you something. When you experience the purity in feeling and physical boost that comes with staying off the grass, a weed relapse can quickly spiral into depression. I loved the way I felt when I wasn’t smoking, and when I relapsed on weed, the reverse was depressing. Also, when you relapse, it’s harder to quit marijuana again than it was the first time. I know because I’ve been through it, and even though I’m back on the road to full recovery, It’s been incredibly tough.
The best advice that I can offer to avoid a marijuana relapse is – stay away from anything that makes you think about weed. It could be friends that smoke, smoking paraphernalia around you, or just situations that stress you out to the point where you feel like you need a smoke. Then, find something to fill in that gap. A hobby, a ritual – anything you can do if the urges come (and they will). It’s harder to relapse on weed when your mind is busy. I’ve been clean for months now, and I’m really looking forward to keeping it this way. If you feel like your dependence on marijuana is out of control, you may want to check into a rehabilitation center.